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sliced my arm.

idiot it’s summer. it’s a little awkward wearing long sleeves.

i’ve been well bad lately. and i’ve cut so much today.

and all i want to do is cut. or inflict harm on others.

it’s been really bad because im having issues with my roommates and we’re all in a big issue and im planning to move out but they wont agree on the subleasers i choose, and so i cant stop paying rent until those cunts choose one, but they’ve knocked down all the ones that have been interested. 

and i feel the only way for me to get out of this situation would be to die. because im really unhappy in my life and lately so much stress and i dont see a way out. 
i havent been able to see a way out for a long time and i just cant anymroe. 

i’ve been real bad with eating lately

ive been binging so fucking hard lately. 

i need to go back to only eating every other day. I did it for a few days but then i came to my parents and that went out the window. 
tomorrow will be my eat a bit day because it’s moms birthday and im taking her to lunch. 

need to lose weight before going to milwaukee and on my road trip. 

fat = gross. 

i made a text post on my other tumblr saying that T was missing out this summer because we’re not meeting and I’m meeting a few of my good tumblr friends.. and he replied saying he’s going to ‘summer camp’ for 9 months. He’s going to Afghanistan. 
im so sad he’s going overseas. i hope those fucking people trained him well because if he gets blown up by a goddamn motherfucking bomb i will unleash so much wrath on the army. 

you can haz me but you cant haz my best friend. :’( 

we skyped for 3.5 hours

and he didn’t even ask to see my boobs. we literally just talked and had a good time.

sometimes my job does well with making friends. 
and he’s cute as fuck, so either way. win, win.